Friday, July 24, 2015

Jonathan



My friend Jonathan died on Tuesday, July 21st.

He was only 36.

His best friend asked everyone for a story that they could share for his mother and although it was hard for me to do, I sat down and wrote this...


About two years ago, maybe more, I went to an event pretty far from where I live. I don't remember the details, but they don't really matter. My friend Jonathan happened to be there and he was his usual sweet, huggy self that day. We had all talked about going to meet up for dinner and he said he wanted to go. So, later when it was over I went to look for him and found him asleep in his car.
I knocked on the window and he seemed to wake up. He got out of his car and closed the door. I was talking to him, but he still seemed kind of out of it. Suddenly his eyes rolled back in his head and he fell backwards onto the ground. His head hit the pavement with a loud bang and he passed out. I yelled out "Oh my God, Jonathan fell and he's hurt! Help!" People panicked around me and finally someone that happened to be an actual medical person came to his rescue. They placed something under his head and someone told me he wasn't bleeding. When he came to, he didn't realize what had happened.
Turns out he'd had a seizure and had them all the time when he'd wake up, but no one had ever told me. Somewhere between anger and relief, I jokingly yelled at him and told him never to do that again and that he had scared me to death. Then I walked away and broke down in tears.
I thought he was dead and it was so scary that I thought I had lost my friend.
Now today, when I learned that he was truly gone, I couldn't find the tears. I suppose I was in shock.
Somewhere in my mind, I keep thinking... it's not true... and I'll be able to yell at him again for scaring me so badly.
I know it's true, but I so wish it wasn't.
There they are... those tears... I knew they'd come eventually.
Rest in peace my sweet friend.

xo
rue



49 comments:

  1. I feel your sorrow. I lost a sweet friend in April and am still not over it. HUGS!!!

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  2. I'm so sorry for your loss Rue. Prayers and hugs for you...

    Jan ♥

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  3. I am so sorry. What a wonderful keepsake for his mother. Thank you for sharing.

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  4. I am so sorry for the loss of your friend, Rue. My heart goes out to you.

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  5. Rue, sending you sweet and gentle hugs. Losing a friend is so hard. Hoping memories will bring you some comfort.

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  6. Rue,
    I'm so sorry to hear about your dear friend, Jonathan. He sounds like a special friend of yours. Thinking of you today and sending love.

    ~Sheri

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  7. Rue, I am so sorry for the loss of your dear friend, Jonathan. May he rest in peace.

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  8. Dear. dear Rue ~ I am so sorry for your loss.

    Love, hugs and prayers ~ FlowerLady

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  9. Bless your heart... I'll be praying for peace for you all. Sending you a hug...

    -Heather

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  10. I am so sorry, life is very very tough.

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  11. I am so sorry, Rue. I am sending prayers and a hug.

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  12. oh rue.
    just no words.
    only love.
    it's all around you.
    and his mother.
    xo♥

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  13. So sorry Rue. Sometimes things happen in life that we can't understand. I will be praying for you to find peace in such a sad time. ~Jill

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  14. I'm so very sorry, may his memory be eternal.

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  15. I am so sorry, Rue. I am sending you an email right now, hope you get it. Hugs. ♥

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  16. Dear Rue, I am so sorry. I know the memories about Jonathan from his friends will be a blessing to his mother.
    Dewena

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  17. I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your friend Rue, and my thoughts and good wishes are with you and Jonathan's family at this sad time.

    May you all remember and share the happy times and special memories.

    God Bless

    All the best Jan

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  18. I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your friend Rue, and my thoughts and good wishes are with you and Jonathan's family at this sad time.

    May you all remember and share the happy times and special memories.

    God Bless

    All the best Jan

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  19. I'm so sorry to hear about your friend! Your written thoughts about him were amazing, and I pray that the Lord blessses your memories of him. God Bless!

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  20. People can be gone so unexpectedly. Love them madly while they are here... xox I am sad for your loss.

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  21. Oh, Rue! I'm so sorry to hear about your friend. We never do know when it's our time and some go sooner than they should. I'm sure you have some nice memories of your friend. Keep them close to your heart. Praying for your peace, sweetness.
    Blessings,
    Shelia ;)

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  22. Dear Rue, I am so sorry for the loss of your friend. Life is so fragile and our time knows no age it seems. Keeping you in my prayers for God's peace and comfort in the days ahead. Sending you hugs. Blessings, cm

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  23. A kind hug and a cup of tea. Blessings to you both.

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  24. It's so hard to lose a friend. Many prayers for peace and comfort.

    Grace & Peace.

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  25. Oh rue, I'm so very sorry for your loss. You and his family and friends will be in my prayers.

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  26. Taken far too young. I'm so sorry you lost your dear friend.
    Brenda

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  27. Oh my. So sorry to hear of such a loss.

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  28. So sorry to hear of your friend's passing. So very tragic to pass away at such a young age. Prayers for you and his family.

    Blessings, Vicky

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  29. Rue, my heart saddens for the passing of your friend, far to young. Take care, Kathleen in Az

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  30. Oh Rue, so sorry for the loss of your dear friend! ...36 is such a young age! Prayers for you and all of his loved ones! ~Rhonda

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  31. Oh my Rue, I'm so terribly sorry about the passing of your friend. Way too young to go. My thoughts and prayers are with you at this sad time.

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  32. May the love of family and friends comfort you at this time of loss. May Jonathan rest in sweet peace.
    Addie

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  33. I'm so sorry for your loss Rue. I recently lost a family friend a couple of weeks ago, he was only 22! I really felt like I was moving through quick sand for awhile, none of it felt real. It's weird how death can feel unreal until you think about never seeing or talking to that person again. I'll be thinking good thoughts for you :)

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  34. I am so sorry Rue. He was taken so young. ;)

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  35. Rue, I am so sorry you lost such a dear friend. I am wrapping you a soft hug and letting you cry on my shoulder for as long as you like. You have memories that will always be with you of your time together.

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  36. I am sorry for your loss....please accept a virtual hug.

    So tragic...too young :(

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  37. I am sorry for your loss....please accept a virtual hug.

    So tragic...too young :(

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  38. So sorry to hear of this loss. Very sad news

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  39. My deepest sympathy on the loss of your friend.

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  40. Oh, Rue, I'm so sorry for your loss.
    Amalia
    xo

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  41. I am so very sad for the loss of your friend. It is far too young an age to die. Hugs and all very best good thoughts to you. xx

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  42. Sorry for his family and you loss. It shows you really cared about him!

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  43. Far too young! My bil died at 35 from an aneurism. Life is so fragile, and can be gone in the blink of an eye.

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  44. I'm very sorry for you loss, he was way too young. My brother died last November at 46, too young too. Hugs to you my dear friend.

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  45. I'm very sorry for you loss, he was way too young. My brother died last November at 46, too young too. Hugs to you my dear friend.

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